Hello, my WordPress friends!
In the last few months, I have not been writing here as much as I used to and there is a miraculous reason for that. It is now time that I share that with you. I am going home! I have been working hard to achieve the final goals in this process and haven’t had time to write as much as I love to.
For 7 years I have been in a nursing home. I came close to death at least twice and often am struck by the miraculous power of God! I was in need of 24-hour care due to the effects of obesity that came from an addiction to food. I certainly put my body through too much and have recently discovered that I was committing suicide by fork. There are many valid reasons for my state but on this wonderous day, I wish only to share a bit about the journey out of that pit of despair and confusion, of which this building is but a symbol.
Two and a half years ago after teetering on the precipice between this world and the next, I woke up. I can not tell you the moment or that there were any words that accompanied this flow of grace to me and my life but the results testify to its truth. I began to make changes to what I ate when I ate and my relationship with food began to be purified. Prayer has always been a core of my life but something changed. I believe it was a deepening of faith that I was loved by the Almighty. I don’t know for sure. For these last years, I have released a ton of weight and I have worked my body in a balanced but insistent way showing it the same grace that was shown to me. I have learned that it is important to love and care for myself and I continue to learn wonderful ways to do that.
Tears are flowing with gratitude on this day that I leave this place that has housed me for so long. There have been bad times but there have also been times of true caring. Friendships forged and lessons learned. One of the things I have learned is that true happiness does not come from a place or things or even people. Happiness is a spiritual state that can be achieved anywhere.
Now I will leave here and start a new chapter in my life. I am so excited to give back and serve mankind in whatever small ways I can.
I am going home, dear friends!
O SON OF SPIRIT! Noble have I created thee, yet though hast abased thyself. Rise then unto that for which thou was created.~Baha’u’llah